Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I have a problem with you. (Not funny.)

Alright, so in advance, I apologize for ranting, but I'm just really hoping to get this off my chest. This probably wont be funny. My bad.

So I've been kind of excited to see "Girl with the Dragon Tattoo".  I've heard so much good shit about it, that I was super stoked to finally see it last night.

I knew there was a rape scene in the movie. I knew that coming in, so I wasn't going to be shocked when it happened. And fuck, I'm an actress, I know this shit is fake.

Oh, spoilers. By the way. I guess.

So the blowjob-to-the-old-dude-for-money scene happens. Gross. Bleh.

And then a few other scenes with Daniel Craig.

And then the rape scene comes along. You know because Lisbeth goes into the guys room, and it's all creepy, and she asks if she's going to have to give blowjobs when she wants money to eat.

I was ready for the scene, it wasn't going to jump up behind me. I figured it was going to be a few snippets and then it'd be over.

I don't know how to describe it because I don't really want to, but let's just say it involves violently tying someone up, handcuffs, gags, ripping clothes off and anal.

And it lasts for fucking ever. It had to be 6-7 minutes of just straight raping.

And I almost pass out. Not like, "Ooo my goooosh, I almost fainted! Oh, la!" but I almost passed the fuck out.  And threw up on the way down.

It was single-handedly THE most graphic, violent thing I've ever seen in my whole fucking life.

This is why I have a problem with this shit.

The movie was rated 'R'. That means it's restricted, but it also means if you're under 17 and someone over 21 buys your ticket, you can go ahead and see it.

There's no fucking way anyone under 17 should see this scene.

I swear to god, I'm not a prude. Yeah, maybe my parents didn't let me watch Power Rangers because it was 'too violent'...but I dressed up as a Pink Power Ranger anyway, because I didn't want anyone to know that I couldn't watch it.

But if you're going to have a scene that's so graphic and violent, you gotta slap it  with a NC-17.

I get it. It's in the book.

I get it. It's a scene that's supposed to build up to the revenge scene that happens later.

I can see both sides of this argument. Well, rape happens. It's something that happens in real life, Alexia. They're just showing something that is horrible, but it happens a lot.

It does happen. And in my opinion, it's one of the worst things a man could ever fucking do to another man or woman, other than murder: to literally crush the joy and love of sex and create a weapon out of it is absolutely disgusting and should be punished as equally as it is horrifying.

But the rating and this scene bother me because it means that we've grouped rape with seeing a titty, which are both rated R. And somehow we've decided they both deserve the same rating.

Tits are tits. Half the population has them. Some guys seem to have them. Kind of. You can look up a girls name on google images and see some tits. Seriously, look up 'Alexia'.

Rape is kinda something no one should ever have to witness or go through.

And another question this scene brings up: is rape against women (and men) in movies making people outraged and disgusted over the act? Or is it just making them immune to it?

Because titties used to be shocking in movies. And now they're kind of a staple in R rated movies.   Which I think is okay, because titties aren't violent and everyone usually sees them before the age of 20 (hopefully). Which  really shouldn't be the case with rape.

If it's making people disgusted and outraged, lovely. If it's making the rape count go down because it makes people realize how disgusting it is, awesome. But even if it is, people shouldn't see it if they're under 17: they're just trying to figure out their own sexual shit, they don't need that added to the mix.

Fuck, I'm 22 years old, and I thought I was going to throw up, and definitely didn't want my own boyfriend to touch me after that.

I don't want people to be ignorant of what's happening in the world. All of us should be preventing rape, men and women. And people should be aware that it's happening.

But I'm not sure if showing such a graphic rape scene is helping us.

Maybe I'm just really sensitive. Maybe it's because rape is one of those things that I think all women have in their worst fucking nightmares.

Maybe it makes it a good movie because I was so affected by it?

But I think the prospect that such violent rape scenes can be rated 'R' makes me worried that they're going to appear more and more in movies, and people are going to get 'used' to them.

But fuck, if it makes people donate to a rape shelter and make sure rape doesn't happen around them, then maybe it's doing something right.

Okay, rant over.

I promise I'll be funnier next time.